To Eat or Not to Eat: No Question About It.

I think I'm going to start starving myself. My best friend has decided to start fasting, so hey, why not starve? I wonder what it feels like to not eat. I've done it before; going up to about a day and a half without even a snack. So many disadvantaged groups have to suffer the hunger pains and toy with thoughts of feasting and having food, and I have plenty of that around the house. Why not give it up to those around me, at least?

I already have heart problems. I've been known to have random arrhythmia attacks and have a family history of    heart-related deaths.  I've got other health problems, too, like dermatitis and allergies and asthma. If my hair keeps falling out at the rate it's already doing so, I'll end up looking like a child undergoing cancer therapy. I've really got not much to lose, other than a few pounds, seeing that I'm already so genetically screwed up.

Honestly, I'm so embarrassed of going to the pool because of swimwear. So many girls can wear a bikini and look great and I'm so afraid of people looking at my midriff. I have a pouch, I swear. I've had a one-piece as long as I can remember. I'm going to try and see if I can lose more than her. I'm already in P.E. class and we lift weights and things like that. Although I'm kinda worried about the danger of fainting or vomiting (already happened today in class... poor E. :/ ) the rewards will be even greater than the consequences. I'm going to be under 100 lbs by the end of March.

To S: I'm really going through with this until you stop putting yourself down. You aren't fat. Shut up. Although my problems are real, please tell me that you could sense the dark sarcasm in this. Stop yourself from doing something stupid before it is too late.

More information courtesy of Google:
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