Someone I'm not.

I don't think anyone knows this. About me, at least. Although I think I'm not the only one who wants to live in a fantasy world.

Even though I kinda know who I am by now, at the same time I think I don't. Even I don't understand what twisted ideas I'm capable of devising. Sometimes I wish I was someone else. I wish I could see the world through someone else's eyes, or live a chimera (pretty word meaning dream or fantasy :P ) I've always wished for a chance to escape reality, warp time and get lost in my own dreams.

Here are some of my strangest dreams/wishes.
ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK.

• The idea of giving a bitter, cold-hearted bitchy payback to people who have ever, at one point of my life or another been mean to me or any of my friends on purpose. Screaming curse words in their face, making out with their boyfriend... Smearing lunch food all over their pretty clothes. Yep, pretty much. That's right. I'd like to be a bitch. (that's something to tell the kids, eh?) As low as that would make me, revenge like that does sound pretty satisfying. *smirk* Of course, I'd never have the guts, nerve, or values to do so.
• Sometimes I'm just so frustrated with things here, like my family, that I feel like... running away from home. Hiding in a best friend's house, or with a lover, sharing secrets and having long talks about life that seem to last forever.  "If I lay here, If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?" <3
• Getting lost. In a densely-wooded forest. Exploring the wilderness on my own, with all its risks and dangers. Being there for days and admiring nature and sketching animals in my little book. (I do NOT have a tree fetish >.< Trees are just awesome.)
• Speaking of nature and awesomeness. GARDENS. If I had money, the first thing I would do (other than get a first class ticket to meet my granddad [the one I actually love {that was harsh.}]) is I would buy a manor, a couple of sexy cars and design my own garden. J'adore. A LOT. I'd love to wander around aimlessly. And it's not just a small little thing, oh no. It's an enormous field of trees and bushes and flowers and handmade swings and it has a cornmaze. If I become rich and/or famous, you are all invited to a tea party in the grand square by the giant fountain. Bring your teddybears. :3
• I really wonder what I'd look like with a pixie cut. No. You don't get to see a picture of me. Maybe someday. I want to get my hair done all weird and different ways. Like straight platinum hair with electric blue tips. Or big, curly, jet-black hair and dark purple roots. Or brown hair with rainbow raccoon tail streaks! Or... what? I'm like that. Don't judge. You know it sounds awesome.

Well I've got more of these weird wishes. But I'll save them for another post. Remind me!