Letter to Students

WHY DID I NOT WATCH THIS EARLIER!?!?!?

Thoughts on Religion and Science

This post may get a few readers grumbling. It may get a few readers thinking. It may make you want to SHOUT! THROW YOUR HANDS UP- AND SHOUT! (sorry for that random musical moment) It may make you pick up your monitor and fling it across the room... although I hope you don't.

This has been on my mind a lot: religion and science.

Our Weaknesses are our... Gifts?

I, being the loser I am, am reading some psychology articles and stumbled upon this lovely post written by a therapist. Enjoy:

Yup. Life

My Current Favorite Terms

I like coming up with my own ways to describe people. It's really a childish thing to do, like what babies do, but who cares? I'm a child in that aspect. Calling people idiots and a**holes is too mainstream. (and I've been trying to curse less) Sometimes regular terms are not gonna help you describe how you feel.

I might not use them that often aloud, but I will now.

So here are some words and terms that I've attached my own meaning to:

Tuesday Quote #4 and #5

Sorry, I haven't done one of these in a while. I was thinking... there's something that has to be done today.

What am I missing?

...Tuesday quote.

So I'm giving you two, to make up for it.

"I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."
-Unknown

"If you love until it hurts, there will be no more hurt. There will be love."
-Mother Teresa

Both are something to keep in mind.

A Vow to Myself

I've decided I'm not living the life I want to live.

I have two years left of high school. I lived the first year worried about fitting in and being cool.
I lost all my friends halfway through.
I lived the second year going, "woe is me" and wanting to hurt myself out of the misery that was my life.
But I tried to keep a smile on my face, painted on the exterior and held it there until it would break every so often. And I'd "start over."

i need you people to be here

someone give me things to do. im bored.

im sick of having to force myself onto others. or at least i feel that way. ive talked about this with one of my friends and she feels the same way.

You are not alone.

So I ran into someone today. Literally.

Wii U!

I've known about the Wii U for a while, but I didn't know whether it was confirmed that it was actually going to be released or not.

I don't know if I consieder myself a gamer. I mean, I've played quite a few classics, but seeing that my parents don't let me play any of the good stuff, such as first/third- person shooters or anything beyond PG-13, well.. is not fair.

But hey, back on topic, fellow gamers. Casual and hardcore alike, I think it would be fun to try it out....

The storm and today's events

So... the streets are flooded. We have to travel by gondola to get around.

I don't ever recall moving to Venice.

Oh well. There was no school today, AND THAT MADE ME DEPRESSED...

poetry about her

So here is me, being deep and all that jazz. Some random lovely poetry I just came up with:

What to do in the Middle of a Storm

So there will be a hurricane coming our way Monday. I've always wanted to do something ridiculous and potentially stupid/self-endangering in the middle of a storm.

Argh.

POST FOR 8/20/2012

Okay so this is an apology to the people around me at school, and my mom and dad and brother because I don't know what's wrong with me but I hope someday I'll be strong enough and brave and have money or insurance to help me get to therapy.

Why Tea Is Awesome

To tea or not to tea? I think that there is no question. Tea has so many benefits and I mean, Uncle Iroh and the British drink tea. You can't go wrong when following what they do...

First Day of Junior Year

Editor's Note: I was gonna post this 8/20/2012, but, you know, laziness.

I woke up at about 5:30, confident that things would go well. I got dressed in the living room (I have no clue why, I just felt like it.), brushed mah teef, blah di blah, morning routine. I even had time to do mah nails, something which I avowed myself to do more often as a self-reward for being a girl. (and to help me with my terrible nail-biting habit)

oh, but there was more...

School is tomorrow!

Ah... so school is tomorrow. I'm actually excited, unlike more than 50% of my peers...

So you definitely missed those teenager posts.

My teenager post posts get the most views out of all the posts in this blog everyday! Thanks viewers!
You get a reward: more teenager posts!

Reminisce about the days of old.

...So I'm a 90's child. And there's just something about growing up that makes you wanna hate today's stuff and be reminisce about the old days... So here's to the things I grew up with.

School's Coming Up!

You gotta make the most of this year. I'm excited, are you excited?

Close of 2012 Olympics

Ah.. Well today is the last day of the 2012 Olympics in London.

... around 7:00...
Right now the closing ceremony should be on here in the eastern coast.
BUT I WANT TO SEE THE REAL THING NOT ENDLESS PHOTO MONTAGES ARGHHHH
DAMN YOU NBC.

...and of course my love for Google Doodles must be shown.
Google Olympics Doodles Imaginative, Interactive A collection of the last few days' doodles.

hehe. doodle.

7:53 and I haven't seen anything supacool in the stadium happen yet.
Still, damn you, NBC.

My favorite sports those would have to be gymnastics and-
YES, YOU SNICKERING, BLUMBERING MACHO FOOLS GYMNASTICS IS A SPORT.

..anyways.

My Top 3 Favorite Sports

1. gymnastics
• rhythmic
• artistic
• trampoline
2. synchronized swimming
3. BMX cycling

They got rid of baseball and softball as Olympic events for this year, if anyone noticed.

World Records were broken, Olympic records were broken, beautiful moments occurred, cool pictures were taken:

but these are of the XXX Olympiad... (hehe. I'll never be able to say that again.)

here are the best...of all time, if you're interested.

The Top 100 Olympic Moments on Sports Illustrated

... OH WOW, EFF YOU NBC, 8:21 AND I CHANGE THE CHANNEL BACK ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT A PERFORMANCE IS ALREADY UNDERWAY.

I'm going to see this newspaper madness now. And the troublesome Prince Henry >.<

... and a Batman with a ..slight weight problem (S. you will understand this one XD )

.. and One Direction. This ceremony got ruined. I'm only kidding, at least the gals are into it now.

and STOMP! I remember my music teacher used to make us watch this.

Oooh, symbolism. Unity. If everyday was like the Olympics. All of us together in harmony.. Hippie talk.

I'm going to finish this one quite nicely. What were your favorite moments?

Ending the post with a pretty picture. :)

I'm jus' sayin we won is all.

MEXICO BEAT BRAZIL AT SOCCER, BITCHES!!!!

GOLD MEDAL!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Have you ever heard how spanish announcers yell after a goal?
Best. Moment. Ever.

Celebrity Crushes!

So... it feels weird posting this. But everyone has a celebrity crush, right? No? What do you mean you're into ducks? Like that? *shudder...Okay, well I have many. And they're all human. It is time to unveil the gloriousness of guys I like (and a few ladiezzz) who are also famous!

1. Chris Martin (Numero uno. For sure. I'm not changing this.)

Piano genius, extremely modest with a good sense of humor. He's got it all.

Guy Berryman (we're still on Coldplay, yes. look at that smile!!!)

Seriously. Look at his smile. He seems so friendly and loving and fun!

Hayley Williams (she's so spunky and she sings well. why not?)

This is in between talent-admiration and girl-crush. This face sums up her personality.

Emma Stone (overall awesome being)

That hair. And I'm really jealous of her beautiful eyes.

Avan Jogia (the hair. the dark eyes. everything.)

Didn't I tell you? The hair. The eyes. He's on Nickelodeon. So what?

Adam Levine 

(I'm sorry I didn't get you a picture of him shirtless!!! The blog would have exploded!! Is that what you want?!?!)

Lead singer of Maroon 5.

Bruno Mars (His songs are romantic, unlike everything else in music these days)

 it's Bruno. He wants to tell you something.

"When I see your face.."

Julian Smith (He's a nerd, he can sing, he's a film-maker. What can't he do?)

I am awesome.

Link Lamont (Also a Youtube comedian. Co-hosts an internet show with Rhett McLaughlin. Epicness.)

Let me just nonchalantly sip this and look awesome.

there are more. plenty. hehehehehehheheheheheheheheheh....

I just want to have fun: gif edition

So school is coming up, mmhmm.

and all I wanna do is move to another country and forget this school and enroll in a super amazing elite arts academy but my mom's probably gonna be like:



but if you tagged along with me and tried to convince her, she would tone it down a bit and go:



right now, you're probably wondering what the hell is going on with all these gifs

but who cares!?!? if I freak you out just feel free to head on over and unbookmark this site or



because my feelings don't matter anyways!!!! but meanwhile just



and listen to my boisterous rambles.


so I'm being overwhelmed by the amount of work there is to do Junior year, and it hasn't even started.
and I know that nothing is going the get easier by the minute, especially not growing up.
with SAT's and ACT's and people inviting us to money saving seminars and getting tons of emails from random colleges I've never even heard of!

 

because I'm going to be one of the few people in my family to go to university and I'M GONNA MAKE SURE THAT HAPPENS, even if it means I don't get to have fun anymore.

CAPS LOCK RAMBLE

ERMAHGERD CAPSLOCK RAMBLE!

LOOK AT MEH NOW, BEACHEZ IM DEYING GRAMMUR AND SPELLING FUNCTIONZ I DONT EVEN KNOW WAT IM SAYINN

DERRRRRRRRRRRR

LALALALALALALALALA ELMO'S WORLD
I WATCHED THAT THIS MORNING HURRRRR

PEANUTBUTTERJELLYTIMEPEANUTBUTTERJELLYTIME
BUT WAIT... IM ALLERGIC TO PEANUTS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM MELTINGGGGG

THE END.

By the way, this is my 200th post!!! what a better way to celebrate by squandering it (i think wrong use of the words squander but who cares) by writing random things
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO



Things I like:

• apples
• pears
• free things
• pineapples
• colored pencils
• rain on a sunny day
• waking up early without an alarm clock
• coffee
• turkish delight
• my blog
• latina girls
• my friends
• actually, my friends who try to talk to me instead of me trying to make them talk to me
• sometimes not "Stan" (I can't "stan"d him sometimes)
• sometimes Stan
• things that start with the letter J
• actually people that are guys that start with the letter J who also send me pictures of my name
• dangerously specific descriptions of people
• not giving a crap anymore if he finds this
• actually giving a crap if he finds this
• regret

Turkish Delight

So I had meh first bite of Turkish Delight. I feel all fanceh and stuffs, being brave and trying out new things.

And.. OKAY SO MY LIFE IS MISERABLY BORING SO SOMETHING LIKE THIS IS A BIG DEALL!

..yes, I'm pathetic. But it's okay, because YOU read this blog so at least I'm not alone in my patheticness.

Either way, I'm obsessed with food, I'm the kid who ate all her veggies and watches cooking shows, so don't be surprised. I'm surprised, actually, that I'm not overweight or as chubby as I should be, seeing how much I snack.

In fact, J (my lovely asian ex-girl-crush) says it's funny, she always finds me snacking and she's noticed I always have food with me or I find a way to get some.

I brought cheerios and spanish food to a bookstore once, people... I'm not ashamed.

so.. Back on topic? >.<

Turkish delight or Lokum is a family of confections based on a gel of starch and sugar. Premium varieties consist largely of chopped dates, pistachios and hazelnuts or walnuts bound by the gel; the cheapest are mostly gel, generally flavored with rosewater, mastic, or lemon. The confection is often packaged and eaten in small cubes dusted with icing sugar, copra, or powdered cream of Tartar, to prevent clinging. Other common types include such flavors as cinnamon and mint. In the production process, soapwort may be used as an emulsifying additive.

Also, most of you don't care, but for you foodies out there I give you my critique:

7.5/10
Very sweet, light fruity and flowery hints of flavor.
It's nicely powdered on the outside. The whole thing has a sort of gummy texture to it, like the inside of a jellybean.

There shall be more of these critiques.

"The Queen let another drop fall from her bottle on to the snow, and instantly there appeared a round box, tied with green silk ribbon, which, when opened, turned out to contain several pounds of the best Turkish Delight. Each piece was sweet and light to the very centre and Edmund had never tasted anything more delicious. … At first Edmund tried to remember that it is rude to speak with one's mouth full, but soon he forgot about this and thought only of trying to shovel down as much Turkish Delight as he could, and the more he ate the more he wanted to eat … .

At last the Turkish Delight was all finished and Edmund was looking very hard at the empty box and wishing that she would ask him whether he would like some more. Probably the Queen knew quite well what he was thinking; for she knew, though Edmund did not, that this was enchanted Turkish Delight and that anyone who had once tasted it would want more and more of it, and would even, if they were allowed, go on eating it till they killed themselves."

i need a change of thought.

So... another serious post.

I think my brain needs some rewiring.

My way of seeing life nowadays uses the words "useless", "wasteful", "meaningless", "dull"... and so forth.

I've been dealing with this for the longest time. I think it's hereditary... seeing that my mom's told me she used to think like that too. (shh... no one but her and I are supposed to know)

I'd like to think that my life has some meaning. I think it does. But every night this week, I've been afraid to close my eyes. I can't help but wonder if this is what dying looks/feels like, being unconscious for a while and neither seeing nor thinking nothing.

Of course, this is far from the truth, as our subconscious is always functioning, otherwise we'd stop breathing in our sleep and then we'd truly die.

Death. Death terrifies me. We don't know for sure what comes after life. You can neither prove nor disprove that there is a second life, or vice versa and that there isn't. It's scary, isn't it?

I believe there is something else. Something we can't percieve. We can't see X-rays, radio waves, or black holes. But we know they're there. We're found instruments to help us prove they're there. So who knows what other things are out there that we can't see?

My life has meaning. Family, friends, future. I live and breathe and promise myself to go on for these F words.

I just have to make sure I think of these everyday.

Shoutout to dem Office Depot peeps

(or was it Office Max?)

So I was lookin' at backpacks and office shiz and then decided to do some self-promotion, cause I'm just amazing like that, is all.

You know where you can test out the sharpies and gel-lie pens and stuff? >.<

Well yah I wrote my blog name on there so if you actually decided to check it out... Here you are! shoutout to you, hope you stay and join the fabulous community of intelligent and attractive people who have seen my blog. :)

Moving to Mars?

"Curiosity, the most sophisticated rover ever built, is now on the surface of the Red Planet, where it will seek to answer age-old questions about whether life ever existed on Mars -- or if the planet can sustain life in the future."
-NASA Administrator Charles Bolden.

NASA LANDS CAR-SIZE ROVER BESIDE MARTIAN MOUNTAIN
Aug. 5: PASADENA, Calif. -- NASA's most advanced Mars rover Curiosity has landed on the Red Planet. The one-ton rover, hanging by ropes from a rocket backpack, touched down onto Mars Sunday to end a 36-week flight and begin a two-year investigation.

The Mars Science Laboratory (MSL) spacecraft that carried Curiosity succeeded in every step of the most complex landing ever attempted on Mars, including the final severing of the bridle cords and flyaway maneuver of the rocket backpack.

"Today, the wheels of Curiosity have begun to blaze the trail for human footprints on Mars. Curiosity, the most sophisticated rover ever built, is now on the surface of the Red Planet, where it will seek to answer age-old questions about whether life ever existed on Mars -- or if the planet can sustain life in the future," said NASA Administrator Charles Bolden. "This is an amazing achievement, made possible by a team of scientists and engineers from around the world and led by the extraordinary men and women of NASA and our Jet Propulsion Laboratory. President Obama has laid out a bold vision for sending humans to Mars in the mid-2030's, and today's landing marks a significant step toward achieving this goal."

Curiosity landed at 10:32 p.m. Aug. 5, PDT, (1:32 a.m. EDT Aug. 6) near the foot of a mountain three miles tall and 96 miles in diameter inside Gale Crater. During a nearly two-year prime mission, the rover will investigate whether the region ever offered conditions favorable for microbial life.

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Well, now that you've read that interesting tidbit of an article... What do you think? I think this I'd awesome, but at the same time I'm scared for losing our Mother Earth... :/

...and I just HAD to include a related song. Coldplay, of course <3

Coldplay - Moving to Mars

This is history... Cherish it. This is what my generation will be telling their grandchildren about. Be a part of it.

Love always, E.N. :)

Princesses kinda suck.

hi

i am a person

i am a human being

i make mistakes

i am not perfect

i am simply another person

in this world

living in this moment

living not for myself

but for you

i just have to find you

whoever you are

You might say I hate Disney princesses...

I mean seriously... when have you met someone that's pretty, comes from a troubled past, talks to animals, sings like an angel and meets a guy whom she falls in love with and marries in the first instant?

And a lot of girls grow up believing that their life will be a Disney fairytale and have similar lives, minus the singing mice and all that. And that their opinions don't matter, noooo they'll find a man as long as they're pretty and

Another thing... almost all of them are white.

I don't care what you say, I have nothing against white people (LOL love you guys <3) 

...but Mulan's not really a princess, she's just a kickass girl being herself and being a warrior, you know.. typical girl stuff.

... as far as I know, Tiana only came out recently.

another one:

A Rant on Stupid Girls

There's a perfect song for this post.

I hate how girls are. I hate them I hate them I hate them. For the sake of my post of course I'm going to overgeneralize, stereotype and all. There are only a few girls or types of girls that I do like.

Maybe I'm too sensitive or maybe I'm just a picky priss but a lot of girls get on my nerves. I walk in the street and I see a girl and she just gives me the weirdest look over, head to toe and makes a face like, "ha."

Um... excuse me, am I not hot enough for you? Sorry I don't dress like you do or whatever, but could you please not so openly judge me right in front of my face?

Or sometimes at the mall or something I see a group of girls just chatting and then they (VERY INDISCREETLY) look over at me and talk about me, I know it. 

Maybe I'm paranoid.

But sometimes I know they're commenting on my clothes or hair or something, because I've overheard them. It's happened quite enough times.

What gives you the right to judge me?

I remember I was in a class with all girls one year. And they promised we would always keep in touch and be friends after the class was over. Then I found out a few of them talked behind me and said some hurtful things and I could never trust them again.

Being a girl myself, I know what it's like to have to suffer through all that hormonal craziness that happens every month.

YES GUYS, I'M TALKING ABOUT PERIODS.

But some girls let this be an excuse to act like total jerks and get what they want. They take total advantage of it and blame it on the PMS.

And other girls think they have to dress like prostitutes in order to get guys. Or worse, they complain about getting horrible guys and say they want a good guy, but they really go for the steroid-jacked douchecanoe instead of the nice guy...

There's a lot more, sorry to say. But I'm going to leave it at here for now.

Not all girls are stupid. If you're a female reading this, then you're definitely not one.

hi friend

I think we're friends.

Unfortunately, you never talk to me so I'm going to be completely irrational and assume you hate me and are only pretending to be my friend so you can get the cake that's in my closet and pet my imaginary kitten often.

Also, Taylor Lautner is Sharkboy.

That is all.