the life of michelle: More About Me

As if you didn't already know enough.

Well hey, if you came here, you clearly wanted to know more about me so you could be able to either decide whether we would be a good match and date in real life or be just friends... or maybe you just like reading "About Me" tabs because they amuse you.

My username?
Well, it contradicts itself, for one. That says something about the way I think. I like looking at the opposing sides of an argument, forcing myself to learn about cultures and beliefs that I don't personally believe or support, because who wants to be uneducated? I don't. I want to understand humanity better.

How did you come up with it?
...I was trying to be deep.
Kidding. (I don't try, I just am, yo.)

One day I was thinking, and realized I'm a novice when it comes to life, but I'm experienced with the life I've lived so far.

Beliefs?
As of now, I'm agnostic. I like the idea of God, and at the same time I don't. I have my reasons and my theories and my thoughts and my wishes and they all contradict and go along with each other.

I believe in the amazingness of the universe itself, and at the same time it has something inexplicable and almost magical about it that makes me wonder if there's a force that governs or observes it all.

I'm not sure if I believe in Hell, or a punishing afterlife.
I highly doubt the existence of one.
I believe in equality, but not in the way you'd think. The kind of equality that offers the same opportunities to everyone, but doesn't treat everyone the same way. Leveling the playing field. Extra help for the handicapped, higher taxes on the extremely rich, etc.

Go ahead, judge me for being indecisive or taking the easy way out of this question by tackling it like a politician and giving the least straightforward answer possible.

Ayyy baby ASL u got a kik mama
18, Female, US of A. No kik, don't call me mama.

Hobbies/favorite things/interests?
Writing, drawing, painting, singing, watching TV, blogging, reading, fashion, designing, talking, philosophy, musicals, drama, comedy, cultures, religions, culinary art, vintage things, cars, biking, surfing the internet, colors, aesthetically pleasing things, trees, climbing trees, looking at trees, nature, animals, poetry, chocolate, wordplay, nail polish, pianos, keyboards, music, flowers, martial arts, long walks, hair dye, photography, fancy notebooks, most vegetables, juice, gel pens, rain, thunderstorms, soup, etc. etc.

Okaaaay, so this info page has enough things, right?
For now?

Song Quotes

"We'll all float on."
"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love. Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way of what I really feel I needed to say."
"And we will never be alone again, 'cause it doesn't happen every day... kinda counted on you being a friend. Can I give it up or give it away? Now I thought about what I wanna say, but I never really know where to go so I chained myself to a friend, 'cause I know it unlocks like a door."
"My gears, they grind more each day, and I feel like they're gonna grind away. And the city blocks, they drive me wild, they're never ending, mile after mile. I just don't know what to do, I'm too afraid to love you."
"It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.."
"Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye. Remember me, once in a while, please promise me you'll try."
"I'd rather be a comma, than a full stop."
"We all need somebody to lean on."
"Someday, I will be strong enough to lift not one, but both of us."
"Nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change."
"I took my love down to violet hill... There we sat in snow. All that time she was silent still, said 'If you love me, won't you let me know?'"
"Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end?"
"If you're lost you can look and you will find me... time after time. If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting... time after time."
"If every second counts on a clock that's tickin', gotta live like we're dying."
"At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself, talking to the moon... trying to get to you. In hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too.. Or am I a fool who sits alone, talking to the moon?"
"Pretty, pretty, please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing.... you are perfect... to me."
"I want love to roll me over slowly, stick a knife inside me, and twist it all around. I want love to grab my fingers gently, slam them in a doorway, put my face into the ground."
"But I'm a freak, I'm a weirdo... What the hell am I doing here?!? I don't belong here..."
"You use your heart as a weapon, and it hurts like heaven."
"I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile. And she will be loved..."