Rhythm

Tumblr has been enough for a while, but I remembered I have this. I haven't reread any of my old posts since the last time I posted on here, but I probably will soon. Not yet, though. I was working two jobs for a while, got fired for reasons I found unfair. I was unprepared, but at least I was able to work there in the first place. That's all I needed.

I have experienced a lot, in the sense of relationships and work life. I still know nothing about what I want, but I've finally been doing better at living my life day by day. I don't have my therapist anymore and I've been managing. I'm listening to The Life of Pablo, probably will listen to some ANTI, and then King Gizzard later and check out some of the rest of music my boyfriend has introduced to me. Trap and chillstep is really good lately, as are concept albums. I started collecting CD's and found some Rilo Kiley and Fleetwood Mac and I dug those for a while.

I'm finding myself really liking this guy. We haven't really known each other for a long time, but after a long period of being unattached to people in general, using them as sources of entertainment and for my own fantasies then pushing them away, I actually want his company. He goes along with my antics and embraces my playfulness, he gives me the tenderness I need. I was worried this would all be superficial, but it's been a steadily and unfurling process. I feel more comfortable now.

I feel more comfortable now.
I feel more comfortable now.
I feel more comfortable now.