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Ever been in one of those moods to listen to a specific kind of genre of music 24/7?

Yeah. Been feeling like that lately. It's nice because I know what I want to listen to, sorta, but also frustrating because I can't always find the exact songs I want to jam to. Agh. Such a struggle.

I'm really behind on all my work, on the borderline of failing two classes again. Don't know if I said this last post, but yeah. Someone tell me how to school because I don't know anymore.

I really don't want to be a debbie downer. What are some good things to talk about...?

Well, I went to the local art festival with friends today. My phone had run out of battery and I ended up lingering in a Starbucks and making small talk with someone who let me use the outlet they were using, and then he let me trust him with my phone so I could keep hanging out with them and walking around! That was really nice. Thanks random dude I forgot to thank :)

I bought a cute and funky parasol (not umbrella :P ) there, all hand-embroidered (or so I was told)...

Nope, wait. Just tried to google "embroidered parasol" and look what I just happened to find! Something that looks pretty much exactly like what I bought:

Fuck you, cute little parasol. You're not one-of-a-kind. I'm so upset.

the source: https://www.etsy.com/listing/159789222/33x25-embroidered-sun-parasol?ref=related-7


Can't trust them all.

Could it be she's still alive?

Yes, yes it's me. Something as simple as typing in "blogger.com" on a whim and remembering that I have this thing just hanging around here is enough to bring me back to writing a blog post, even if it has been 2 months.

I mean, there's so many things going on in my life but at the same time, none at all; it's so overwhelming.

I'm kind of debating whether or not to leave this little thing and move on, but I'm too attached to it to shut it down completely, so no worries. If Blogger doesn't decide to do something crazy and delete all blogs, this trainwreck will still be here for you to laugh and cry or stare blankly and type "LOL" at anytime you'd like.

So... I'm an adult now. Kinda weird, kinda whatever. My parents don't really treat me any differently, and neither do cute cashiers at the grocery store. I don't Federal forms and things to fill out are really annoying and stupid but I guess it's what I have to do... Yo' girl has applied for college!

I still think the system is stupid and if you were to try to sort me into a clique or whatever I'd be somewhere in between artsy hipster ([Perks, anyone?] which, by the way, is a lovely movie and a book I'm planning to read. sometime. soon. i promised myself.) and careless stoner (you know, minus all the drugs).

So this signup thing was done reluctantly. I don't know what I'm going to "pursue" in college. I've crossed off a few things from my list, including English major. Despite having a creative writing class and being in an advanced English class as well, my writing skill has gone down significantly and I realized I can't write a good essay to save my life, unless it requires me spending an entire day and a half on it. So that's out. I'm also not going to pursue anything in the medical field. So, there's that...

yeah. i dunno.