They say I'm too young for love. "They" being my parents. And I think I'm finally starting to understand and am willing to accept it. I think my mom is starting to see that I really am more mature than others and she's been seeing a lot of the real me lately. I've been a little more *ahem* vulgar with my choices of words (I accidentally cursed on the phone with her a few days ago! [If I even mutter the word "stupid" in her presence, she'll ground me.]) and realistic about my expectations and knowing what my flaws are. I think it's sorta been me holding back on this all along, because I'm so reluctant to talk about my feelings to her. But I love this new-found feeling of connection between my mother and I, considering we're so close in the first place. Also, not that I'm looking for a boyfriend or anything, because really, I think it would be too much to handle for me right now (I would NOT be able to concentrate on school with a sweet guy by my side; you kiddin' me?) but I want to develop... more intimate relationships with people. And I want to enjoy my youth. I want to meet a man that I know will understand that, and will wait for me to be ready to date, won't make me cry, won't make me frustrated, won't distance themselves or play mind games. High school is a good time to grow up with someone and get to know them as friends. It's a time when you should be as fun as a child but have the maturity of an adult. You have to make the most out of it and know that after it comes the full-on responsibility or the real world. And when I take that on, I know I'll be ready. And now I know that waiting will be all the more worthwhile.

Also, I found something that totally describes me:


And this is exactly how I feel about certain people sometimes...


I love reading these. G'nite!