the life of michelle: It's All In Your Head (most times)

Monday, January 21, 2013

It's All In Your Head (most times)

So I got a comment on my last post, and that gave me the idea for this post.

(I apologize in advance for the lack of cohesive thoughts in this post, my mind's been running around a lot lately)

Sorry for not posting anything these last few days. I was so afraid of the thought of falling into the terrifying state of mind called "Writer's Block" that I ended up dooming myself to be blocked either way.

Ironic, isn't it?

Fear plays a big part on what we do, what we don't do.
What we think will happen may end up happening because we've cornered ourselves into having no other choice.

I thought I was going to have a hectic year. They say Junior year is one of the hardest, and I was expecting the worst.

Oddly enough, 11th grade so far has been a rough year for me, but I'm recovering and trying to brace myself for more, all the while contemplating the crazy things that have happened so far.

I had a big important essay thing prepared (cause I'm definitely important and wise enough to make valid and exemplary speeches.... yeah right) that related to the song but I don't feel like writing it anymore.

I feel like I'm good at saying things and giving advice (at least I hope so) but I never follow any of it...

But I don't give myself enough credit, I guess. I used to think I was one of the smartest people in my grade (back in elementary school) and therefore I was, because I worked my hardest in order to live up to that expectation.

Over the years, I've come to realize that there are people much more hardworking and intelligent than I am.

And I wonder, "Why try, if my best is never going to be good enough?". My best isn't going to be THE best. I'll end up being compared to someone else.

But then that song (which is The Middl e by J immy Eat World btw) comes to mind and the lyrics ring true.

Don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away

Meh something came up and I shall come back and finish this post properly. But listen to the song, it's been stuck in my head for days :P

1 comment:

The Lion KingJanuary 22, 2013 at 2:59 AM
Yay I'm glad you like the song and you caught the message too.
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Song Quotes

"We'll all float on."
"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love. Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way of what I really feel I needed to say."
"And we will never be alone again, 'cause it doesn't happen every day... kinda counted on you being a friend. Can I give it up or give it away? Now I thought about what I wanna say, but I never really know where to go so I chained myself to a friend, 'cause I know it unlocks like a door."
"My gears, they grind more each day, and I feel like they're gonna grind away. And the city blocks, they drive me wild, they're never ending, mile after mile. I just don't know what to do, I'm too afraid to love you."
"It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.."
"Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye. Remember me, once in a while, please promise me you'll try."
"I'd rather be a comma, than a full stop."
"We all need somebody to lean on."
"Someday, I will be strong enough to lift not one, but both of us."
"Nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change."
"I took my love down to violet hill... There we sat in snow. All that time she was silent still, said 'If you love me, won't you let me know?'"
"Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end?"
"If you're lost you can look and you will find me... time after time. If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting... time after time."
"If every second counts on a clock that's tickin', gotta live like we're dying."
"At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself, talking to the moon... trying to get to you. In hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too.. Or am I a fool who sits alone, talking to the moon?"
"Pretty, pretty, please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing.... you are perfect... to me."
"I want love to roll me over slowly, stick a knife inside me, and twist it all around. I want love to grab my fingers gently, slam them in a doorway, put my face into the ground."
"But I'm a freak, I'm a weirdo... What the hell am I doing here?!? I don't belong here..."
"You use your heart as a weapon, and it hurts like heaven."
"I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile. And she will be loved..."