the life of michelle: Wishes

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Wishes

Random wishes

I wish I was living in a storybook. So I wouldn't have to worry about what the end of my life is going to be. I'd just know.
I wish I were a flower, so I could be called pretty and nice and be given to someone as a sign of love.
I wish I could fly, go up high and see everyone and everything and be lighter than a feather. I could spin around and float away and zoom over lakes and rivers.
I wish I were a famous singer. So I could use my fame and fortune to help the ones who are struggling and actually care about improving their lives and making something out of it. I wish I could sing about my feelings and have fans who want to be like me and I wish could be a good role model.
I wish I had a job so I could take that money and be able to pay for my mom to go to the clinic. She has a weak immune system and she's fatigued and short-of-breath and coughs violently. I'm scared it'll get worse because she's been like this for almost 2 weeks.
I wish I had something to believe in. I'm losing faith in my religion and even if there is nothing out there, I want my life to have meaning, be part of something great. But nothing is for sure...
I wish I could forget school and go crazy, just an entire year of vacation. Have a huge party with all my friends and go on road trips and camp out and visit theme parks and the movies and see the world together. Experience new cultures and see new places.
I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life. Do I really want to be a counselor? Help out people that are going through the same things I did once? Do I want to be a nurse? Could I live with myself if I messed up and risked someone's life? Do I want a big house with multiple room to run around and live luxuriously? Or do I want a quaint, cozy, little home in the suburbs or the countryside? Do I really want to be famous, or anonymously brilliant? Do I want to have kids or adopt? Do I still want to live here in America, or live in some foreign country?
I wish I were me, but I'm still not sure who that is.

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Song Quotes

"We'll all float on."
"Sometimes all I really wanna feel is love. Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry. Sometimes my feelings get in the way of what I really feel I needed to say."
"And we will never be alone again, 'cause it doesn't happen every day... kinda counted on you being a friend. Can I give it up or give it away? Now I thought about what I wanna say, but I never really know where to go so I chained myself to a friend, 'cause I know it unlocks like a door."
"My gears, they grind more each day, and I feel like they're gonna grind away. And the city blocks, they drive me wild, they're never ending, mile after mile. I just don't know what to do, I'm too afraid to love you."
"It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.."
"Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye. Remember me, once in a while, please promise me you'll try."
"I'd rather be a comma, than a full stop."
"We all need somebody to lean on."
"Someday, I will be strong enough to lift not one, but both of us."
"Nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change."
"I took my love down to violet hill... There we sat in snow. All that time she was silent still, said 'If you love me, won't you let me know?'"
"Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end?"
"If you're lost you can look and you will find me... time after time. If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting... time after time."
"If every second counts on a clock that's tickin', gotta live like we're dying."
"At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself, talking to the moon... trying to get to you. In hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too.. Or am I a fool who sits alone, talking to the moon?"
"Pretty, pretty, please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing.... you are perfect... to me."
"I want love to roll me over slowly, stick a knife inside me, and twist it all around. I want love to grab my fingers gently, slam them in a doorway, put my face into the ground."
"But I'm a freak, I'm a weirdo... What the hell am I doing here?!? I don't belong here..."
"You use your heart as a weapon, and it hurts like heaven."
"I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile. And she will be loved..."