Lonely and Bored

One of my blogging friends wrote about this a few days ago. Funny thing is, she's not alone. I feel that way too.

I really to do something with my life.

Sometimes, more often than not, I feel like I'm wasting my life. I mean, 1/4 of the day, I'm asleep. That's about 6 hours a night. Sometimes more, sometimes less. and I'd say another 2/4, I'm either sitting around and being stupid and useless, eating junk food, watching TV, power napping or doodling. The rest of my time I either spend with the relatives "bonding" or I sit in front of a computer screen and dive into the black hole that is the Internet. It's only 2 days into the summer vacation, and I'm really starting to miss school already. I have my entire summer to waste, doing the aforementioned activities, and for what? For having lost all the information I worked so hard for during the school year. Vacation is supposed to be fun. But I'm not going anywhere special. I'm not going to camp or visiting distant relatives or riding rollercoasters, sparking up a summer romance, exploring the world, or anything. Sometimes it gets really bad, to the point where I think of a world without me. Why am I alive at all, if I'm not making my life useful or interesting? It's a selfish thought, really, because I have my friends and my parents and brother who will miss me. Hopefully. But how does one little life impact the world? It doesn't. Hopefully my sad, woe-is-me attitude will change when I find something to occupy myself with. Maybe I need something, to find that "missing piece". Or maybe all I need is to go see a shrink or a quack. Who knows.

I hate sounding like a lonely troubled teenager. If you guys are my friends, and I know you're out there somewhere, ever want to spend time with me, just hit me up. I really love your company. You know how to contact me.