the life of michelle: Could it be she's still alive?

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Could it be she's still alive?

Yes, yes it's me. Something as simple as typing in "blogger.com" on a whim and remembering that I have this thing just hanging around here is enough to bring me back to writing a blog post, even if it has been 2 months.

I mean, there's so many things going on in my life but at the same time, none at all; it's so overwhelming.

I'm kind of debating whether or not to leave this little thing and move on, but I'm too attached to it to shut it down completely, so no worries. If Blogger doesn't decide to do something crazy and delete all blogs, this trainwreck will still be here for you to laugh and cry or stare blankly and type "LOL" at anytime you'd like.

So... I'm an adult now. Kinda weird, kinda whatever. My parents don't really treat me any differently, and neither do cute cashiers at the grocery store. I don't Federal forms and things to fill out are really annoying and stupid but I guess it's what I have to do... Yo' girl has applied for college!

I still think the system is stupid and if you were to try to sort me into a clique or whatever I'd be somewhere in between artsy hipster ([Perks, anyone?] which, by the way, is a lovely movie and a book I'm planning to read. sometime. soon. i promised myself.) and careless stoner (you know, minus all the drugs).

So this signup thing was done reluctantly. I don't know what I'm going to "pursue" in college. I've crossed off a few things from my list, including English major. Despite having a creative writing class and being in an advanced English class as well, my writing skill has gone down significantly and I realized I can't write a good essay to save my life, unless it requires me spending an entire day and a half on it. So that's out. I'm also not going to pursue anything in the medical field. So, there's that...

yeah. i dunno.

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Lucia the LunaticMarch 12, 2014 at 5:19 PM
Art design is always there : )
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