An occurrence that will not be described in detail on here

[Crude language warning]

thought: Hah ah ahahahaha when guys think you owe them???? I can owe you money if I borrowed it and I can even owe you a new phone if I broke it but bodies can't owe you anything sorry my genitals and undergarments arent yours

hate the player and the game, cause you keep striking out my dear."

I was originally considering not writing anything about what happened a while ago... and I won't, not now or ever, likely. But I do have a lesson, or at least an opinion related to this. I am doing just fine, btw.

If you ever think anyone owes you anything sexually, you're wrong. A person's body is theirs to control and use to their will. It is only okay to get something from that body if there is mutual agreement/consent in addition to sobriety (in most cases) no matter how much you want them or how much they seem like they want you. Don't move before knowing for sure!!! Some people, (like myself) simply enjoy being a flirt or a tease and you can't assume anything other than "they like to flirt".

You shouldn't feel ashamed in flirting with someone, no matter how you do it, and you shouldn't feel pressured into doing anything you don't want to do. Of course, you should know your risks and assess what you're getting into, and know yourself first before doing something that isn't you. Let them call you a virgin (it isn't even an insult, it's like saying "gay"), let them teasingly call you "mean", let them tell you that you're an ass/(son of a) bitch. It doesn't mean shit. It's not exemplary behavior according to most societies, but you shouldn't be damned or guilted for your actions.

Once you learn to make decisions and own up to what they may bring, once you know that you can do things in moderation or before you hit your limit, you are an adult.

Go and be happy.