I'm single again.
it's been approximately two hours that i've been single again and i like to think i'm doing fine. sending THE text was the hardest. even though i didn't really care as much anymore, there were tears and anxious hands struggling to see if i got a response, a moment of trying to catch my breath right after i hit "send". over is finally over and forever shall be. i think that's what scared me the most. the fact that i know i could never go back to YESTERDAY, that it would be something unattainable and that the good moments could never be repeated exactly the same way. they're only memories: only things to recall until you decide to no longer recall them, or mentally are incapable of doing so.
it's kind of terrifying and relieving at the same time.
so there. that's it, i guess.
